do i need to justify

Lately I have felt pretty detached. I mean, I am the type of person who reads the blogs I follow on a daily basis. I was on top of reading my daily devotions and bible and writing in my journal. And then BAM its been over a month. I look at the blogs I want to catch up on and get overwhelmed with how far behind I am. I think about the photo albums I started on shutter fly and feel a drowning feeling at all the photo files I need to go through to finish them. The random Christmas decorations still piled in our basement bedroom, I seriously avoid glancing in there because if I acknowledge their presence I feel guilty that they haven't been put away. There are still boxes of wedding decorations out and don't even get me started on the thank you cards we haven't got out yet. GAH. I don't even recognize this side of me. I am usually so on top of things. I pride myself on how organized I stay and how clean I keep my house. Piles of laundry? What? Not this girl….at least it use to be not this girl.
I attempt to catch up I do. And I get close….ok well not with the basement. Out of site out of mind ya know? But I think about it. In fact, I bring it up to Jeff at least once a week. "Hey Hunny, let's pick a weekend and really tackle the basement." He responds with his usual "Yeah, for sure." And as you've gathered, nothing happens. I'm racking my brain for excuses, at least a worthy one that will really hold up. Here's what I've got. In lou of organizing, spotlessness and a pile free home I stay busy playing with Brody. We read, we drive trucks, we pile blocks. We go outside almost everyday, if it were up to Brody we'd probably be outside from morning until night. We run errands, we have meltdowns, we have days where all my little man wants to do is be held. So I hold him. I love on him, and we cuddle up on the couch. We try to make it to story times and play dates. We try to find family time and go on walks. We babble and we love to climb. Does that excuse all of the other things I need to stay caught up on? I don't know maybe not, maybe so. But he's not going to be 18 months forever. He's not going to be obsessed with mommy and daddy time forever. So I savor it. I love it. I indulge it. We all know how fast our babies grow and change. Those blogs I need to catch up on? They aren't going anywhere. There's always going to be cleaning needing to be done and laundry to catch up on. Are we ever caught up on putting things away and organizing clutter? I don't think so. But the moments I choose to be with my son instead, those moments matter. They are moments that are easily missed and their significance aren't usually noticed until it's too late.  I just don't want that to happen. I don't want to be so overwhelmed with household chores or things I think are more important and miss something with him. A moment, big or small, those tiny changes that are gone without you taking notice. I want to notice.