Before your sister was born I worried. I worried I wouldn't know how to love you both. I worried I wouldn't know how to divide my time. I worried you would feel replaced. Lola has been with us now for almost a week and I see those worries were for not. My love for you has not diminished. If anything it has grown even more. I'm not even sure how that's possible but it did. I also found a brand-new well of love for your little sister. It was never about dividing anything, it was about finding more. There is always more love to be discovered.
You too Brody have discovered a new well of love. Not for your father or for me but for your baby sister Lola. Each day I see you fall more and more in love with her and it warms my heart. You took awhile to warm up to this new little baby, but now all you want to do is shower her with kisses. You always want to hold her and hug her. You pat her head, you touch her little fingers and wave "hi" for her. You have even tried to take her out of her bassinet to console her when she was crying.
Of course it's not all rose tinted glasses all the time. You are dealing with a huge change, as are we all, and for you it's not always easy understanding or voicing those feelings. You don't always want to share mommy and daddy and it seems like one of us is always holding your squirming, fragile, baby sister. I want you to know we are doing our best to keep your normal routine. I know you don't always get us both at bedtime now, and mornings aren't just the three of us cuddling in bed. But I know with time, you will see this foursome isn't so bad. It's lots of extra love! Before you know it you and Lola will be playing together.
Brody, I love you so much and watching you care for Lola makes my heart swell with pride. You will grow into such a wonderful little boy and big brother. I'm so excited to watch the relationship with your sister grow and develop. I know you will always love her and protect her. And I, Brody, I will always, always love you, and protect you the best I can and guide you even if that means letting go.
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