Bring it On

I'm shy. And it just hit me today that it's eminent that I overcome my shyness for Brody. I don't like to do things on my own, and I am seeing how unfair this is to him. He is so outgoing and brave and loves being out and exploring. He does well playing with other kids and his smile never fades. He's his father! And I hate the thought of my shyness keeping him from getting to experience new things. That means I have to step out of my comfort zone and take him to books and babies, go on walks around the park, seek out play groups. It might sound so simple to others, like no biggie. But for me, I get anxiety just thinking about it. It's one thing to have Jeff with me and go to these things, but I know for myself and for Brody, I need to be brave, like him, and just jump! This admission makes me feel ashamed. I don't know. It's just...I love Brody so much and I would do anything to insure his happiness. I think being away from him for 11 days has made me an emotional wreck! I want him to thrive, and I know at this point a lot of that depends on me. It depends on how much I offer. I have to put him out there and give him opportunities no matter how uncomfortable it may make me. So I suppose that makes October a sort of challenge month for me. It's a month of new steps. Wish us luck!